Sunday, November 15, 2009

Posted by Vivi at 7:49 PM

Monday, November 02, 2009

Reflection

Yeah yeah, cliche title.

I kinda think that I have been behaving like alot of things doesn't matter.
I love the life I have. The fun I get. Till things get way out of hand, and I ask myself, is that what i really want?

Anyhow, I always wonder, which is the true me ? Till this day, I guess, its a sum of all my sides, my experience. So may it be the fun loving side you saw of me today, or the one that shows u she doesn't like you, the one who stands for her beliefs, the one who cried and break down. There is like so much internal struggles and conflicts going on on the inside of me. Putting measure of benchmark of what i "should" do. My life of black and white has gone grey. I would admit that Life is more fun that way with all the shades. But i guess, with it comes another set of issues to deal with.

Yes I don't like to show my weak self to anyone. Who does?
The image that people have of me is independent gal. I guess, I am in sort of way, but everyone has an Achilles heel.

I have been packing up my days and weeks ahead. That its is ridiculous. But then again, ppl been asking me out so randomly that it gets so filled.
Is that a reason or an excuse that I have no time for myself.
I have been ignoring myself long enough.
And i refuse, yes, i refuse to hear my voice.

I was surprise that over a phone conversation i sort of broke down. To a friend that I barely Knew. But I guess there is something different about him. Sincerity.
Im not sure if he ever understand how i feel. because, the first sight he saw of me was the party side of me. Will anyone who know me in this point in life, ever believe what I stand for?

I really doubt so.

The one thing that I am very very thankful is that I have a great bunch of wonderful friends. These friends kept me going, and they were just so ever there for me.
I am thankful that God is ever so good to my life. even when i don't deserve it.

Posted by Vivi at 11:39 PM

Friday, October 16, 2009

Its nice....

Its really nice to hear someone telling me im as important as his work.
To know that just to meet me, he took leave the next day so that he can spend more time to catch up with me. And he smsed me the moment he know he was free.
I was really really stun to hear that. And boi, he looks really deprived of sleep.
Catching up 3 years of our life in into the wee hours and seeing how we have changed.

Posted by Vivi at 2:16 PM

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Warp Compass

To guide one's path is its purpose in life
But a fatal attraction caused it to defy
The law of magnetic field no longer applies
To swing in directions in its own vice

Counting on it to point the way
Is as good as walking in circles whole day
Threading along the same paths once again
Losing count of the timeless day

Without an anchoring point
Without knowing which way is right
With a warp compass of life
One walks aimlessly in deny.


Posted by Vivi at 8:37 PM

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Im having too much fun with life

I know........ its the LACK of updates.

but......... im really kinda busy! hahah

Too many outings. Even on weekdays.

I shall just put 1 or 2 photos for each outing.











Nights out.

Posted by Vivi at 11:26 PM

Monday, September 28, 2009

I'm starting to think I have a warp compass

Posted by Vivi at 6:31 PM

Saturday, September 05, 2009

Life has been too happening

lack of updates I can see. Because, I have been going out, and haven had much time to myself.
hahaha.

Even next week is all planned out. Every single damn day. I don't even have time to go to the GYm! must try to go soon... or not waste meso.

Alrighty.

lots of stuff been happening. I really feel that im living my life to the fullest currently. And I really love it. Meeting so many new people.

Anyhow... let the pics do the talking.








Btw, i passed my CFA level II! heh.

And.. life is pretty exciting. Going to go Tio man to learn diving in a few week's time.
Possibly going to Jakarta to club for a weekend.
Going Thailand (maybe? lol.)
Going Japan in December!

I really don't remember when Life was so happening for me.
But is sure looks great!

Posted by Vivi at 7:33 PM